Wat a terrible friday... Much to my annoyance... Shits came to me during since last week... Well... This was the first week of school after the 2 weeks of Commonwealth Game holiday.... First week of the holiday were boring except for the trip To Phillip Island... Others i was staying at home and watched movies tat i downloaded... Otherwise sleep till late... Tat's how i spent my holidays... Well... Lots of things tat annoyed me this few weeks.... Friends... Love.... Aahh.... Those things had ruined my holidays.... In the other hand... My math methods subject is driving me crazy... Feel like dropping this subject now... I don't even understand all the topics and calculations.... Sigh.... So much pressure on me... I thought i could have an enjoyable life right here.... Nah... I was wrong... I won't be having those enjoyable life here.... Study is getting harder and harder... Love is driving me crazy.... Sigh... I should be tough... I promised myself some rules... Being tough, changing my attitude toward my gf, sone of my personality, be kind and learn to forgive people... In the other hand.. I started to do some exercises... I started to do things tat i wasn't used to do... I had a new hair cut... I skinned my hair with line at the side... But next time i'll skin my hair with lots of line or pattern... My friends were shocked about it.. This is the new version of SAM.... Not the old version SAM... People will always changed after they had some bad experience.. Most likely being tougher... By the way... Love is not a fun thing to play or on with... It will only drive us crazy... U complain when u got a partner... U complain if u can't get a partner... Wats the matter with it?? U'll be always complaining... Blah Blah Blah... Shits go on n on... One thing i found out about myself... When i trying to get a girl.. I'll be so damn miss her... Miss her like hell... But once i got her... Those feeling gone... Not all of them gone but just part of it... Sometimes when i miss her but i'm not sure wheather she miss me... When i felt like hugging her but she wasn't next to me... I'm too selfish... I shouldn't expect tat she'll always next to me.... She should have some personal space... Perhaps privacy.... I should be happy if she is happy.... Although i might not be happy in heart... But just wan her to know tat i can do anything for her... I changed because of her... U should be happy with it... Please forgive me if i done something wrong tat hurt u or upset u.. Sorry about tat...