~Night^Vampire~

First of all.... Happy Birthday to my beloved mum... Wish u always tat healthy and always tat pretty... Hahaha... By the way... Mum called me n my sis last nite n blame on us none of us remember her b'day... Even my sis also forgot... She thought yesterday was 4th of May... While my mum called onlt she realize it was her b'day.. Haha... I did remember her b'day but then i thought they went out for dinner... So nvr call her till my sis called n inform me... Haha... Oh yeah... I went to Hollywood last nite.... Well... Dont think of tat "Hollywood"... It's a Karaoke... By the way... My buddy Daniel broke up with his gf last week... But then he acted nth happened.... Tough guy... But we knew tat he was sad about it... But he just pretend happy... Thursday was Daniel's gf Tiffany b'day.... Then she planned to celebrate at Hollywood on Friday.. In the other hand... Daniel made a reservation at Hollywood as well... Tat was a 10 persons room... There were only 4 of us... Why dont we just fit into a room?? Because Tiffany's bf was there as well... Sigh.. Poor Daniel.... Tat room cost us $280... N Daniel only had $70+ in his pocket... Haha... Ok... Crap over.... Now is my turn... I received my term report... Had 2 F's out of 6 subject.. Yeah... Both also Maths.... Scored A for my Information Technology... Haha... Then B for my Accounting... LOL... Not good enough... Mayb because of something vexed stuck in my head.... Sigh... Telling another sad story again about Stella.... Y i chose "Dusty Toothbrush" as my tittle?? Haha... Not because of i didn't brush my teeth... Then my toothbrush became dusty... Nah... It's because someone didnt use tat toothbrush since a long time ago... It's dusty now... Whose toothbrush?? Is Stella's... She have not been visiting me for a long while... Everytime i brush my teeth.. I stared the dusty toothbrush.. Then guessing when is the toothbrush's owner will come... But none of my guessing was right... Well a toothbrush became dusty... Wat about human?? Last nite i thought about those problems we having now... Lots of problem till i couldnt even type it out.. Was thinking to give it up... It's totally wasting out time... But then i asked myself.. Is she a nice girl tat i'm loving of?? Is she my type of girl?? Then my give up plan just vanished... Then issues coming back into my mind... She just fooling with u... She doesnt love u.... She thinks u r annoying... It seems like the devil debating with the angel in my mind... Then today i asked her out to have a drink with me.. Was planning to talk about our situation... But then she nvr pick up my call... Not even reply my message... Fine... Later on she replied me tat she was sleeping... Then i asked to come out to have a drink... Haha.. She told me tat her house mate sick already... Not sure whether could come out... Fine then... I asked her to come out many times... But everytime she just rejected my invitation... Sigh... I just went through my sms inbox... Read messages she sent... There was a message said tat she miss me.... Just wondering is tat from the bottom of her heart or just acting?? I always wondering wat's in her mind... Wat she thinking of?? Really couldnt get to know her tat well.... I remember Sylvia told me not to think about the sad things.. Think about the happy things.. In my memory the happiness we had together were just few things... Haha... We have been together for half a year.. But we seems like been together for 2 days.. Wat's wrong between us?? Yesterday i sang a song named 'What can i do' from The Corrs.. The lyrics suited me very much... Here is the lyrics.. It really suit the situation i'm having now..

THE CORRS - What can i do
I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, no more, aching...
No more fighting, no more, trying...
Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it fly