Y i'm using "Unpleasant Sam" as a title of this post?? I guess pretty much i wanted to say i'm being a unpleasant person lately... Guess wat... I'm not being the Sam u guys used to c but i'm being someone else.. I'm like a beast lately.. Didnt really want to tell tat details but i know i'm being such a beast.. I'm totally different from the old Sam u met... I done something unbelieveable... Somehow i know ppl will change but i changed to a unpleasant ppl.. I gues not much ppl will like this me... But no worries... I'll not show this me to u guys...
Anyway i have not been feeling happy lately... My mind is full of the past memories of my ex... Yeah... U guys might think wat made me think of the past.. Well.. Let me tell u guys more about myself... I'm a retrospective person.. I like living in the past... Somehow i'm a person tat quite stubborn about the past... I used to tell ppl to move on but i couldnt really do tat for myself... I always think tat y i'm not a computer or a robot... If so i can delete the memory i wanted to.. Nowadays the past is driving me crazy... I couldnt really cope with it... It's really upsetting me... I know i'll feel better if i move on n forget about the past... But it seems hard to me... Mayb i need some time to move on... Or mayb my mind doesnt wan me to forget the past.. As i said i'm being someone else but not myself... I have been thinking so much things back to the past... Everytime i broke up in a relationship.. I still can live happily... But now i have no idea y i'm being so fragile... I'm really hurt tis time.. Someone really hurt me deeply tis time... I have been thinking deep down to my heart... Asking myself quite a few question... Although i got the answer but still i feeling depress... I guess this might be a karma... I will nvr learn everytime i broke up in a relationship but this time i learnt a lot... Realized i'm not suitable to be a loyal person.. I'm Gemini.. I should be a playboy... Somehow i shouldn't be so deep in love... Love is addictive... Love is a dangerous game.. Being a loyal person for such a long time but at the end u'll hurt more... I have nvr ever feel tat painful in my entire life be4... This time i'm so fucking pain... It's like a torment from love... I dont wan those feeling guys... U guys have any idea to cope with it?? Being torment in your mind is not a good feeling... I hate tat feeling.. I hate being alone... Somehow i hate being tis Sam... I wan to be a happy Sam... I dont really wan memories... Y cant i forget everything?? I'm going to crazy soon... My mind is going to collapse... My soul is breaking down... The old Sam is gone now... Let's pray for him...